It was Brother Lawrence's desire to live his entire life out of his love for God. He made it a habit to consciously bring his mind back to the Lord several times an hour, until his awareness of being in God's presence was second nature to him. This impressed me, and I began to incorporate this practice into my own life. I can't say I ever conquered it, but I was learning to be more conscious of living in the presence of Jesus, and it was very sweet.
Then life got in the way. Although I continued to grow in my walk with Christ, I did not keep the practice of calling myself back to the presence of Christ as I had in my younger days.
But over the past several years I have been reminded that I am always in the presence of God if I love Him and am walking with Him. And I have sensed Him calling me more and more into a place of recognizing His presence in every part of my life. One tool He is using to remind me is Sarah Young's book, Jesus Calling. Daily I am reminded to rest in Him, to trust Him, to recognize trials as opportunities to let Him work in my life. It is a precious experience to hear Him through the words of scripture and through this devotional book and to respond.
But that is not how it really is. We convince ourselves that we are bad, but to the Lord we are simply out of contact with Him. And it is His love for us that draws us back. We need not fear His judgment; if we are sincerely walking with Him, we can expect only love and grace from Him as we turn back.